Waiting Time

“God intended that they would seek Him and perhaps reach out for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us.” (Acts 17:27 BSB)

I’ve always had purses that were big enough to carry a book. Anytime I had to wait for anything, I would pull out my book and start reading. These days, I just pull out my smartphone. I can occupy myself for hours checking messages, emails, social media, news websites, etc.

I noticed how much I craved distraction, and how uncomfortable I felt just looking around in public. Checking my phone or reading a book made me feel efficient and productive. On the contrary, not having something to focus on made me feel like my time was being wasted, even if it was just a few minutes waiting in line for the cashier at the grocery store. This desire for distraction and usefulness had become a barrier between me and God--which is the definition of sin.

Recently, I have been trying something different. When I have a few minutes to pause during the day, instead of reaching for my phone, I reach out to God. I pray. I look for Him in my surroundings, in the people around me. I pray. I listen carefully for His voice. I talk to Him about my concerns. I pray. This change has not been easy, but it has been rewarding. I am becoming more aware of myself, of others, and of God in our midst.