I have a hard time distinguishing between 'my projects' and 'God's projects.' Recently, a thought came to me that I needed to do something for a particular person. I couldn’t tell if this was my own idea or some sort of divine nudge. I’ve had these kinds of thoughts before. I’ve noticed that if I wait long enough, I can talk myself out of following through on these notions. I usually tell myself that this doesn’t make sense, or that my motives are mixed up, or that the conditions are less than ideal.
I can filter out the urge to follow most promptings by deciding that my input will not make much difference in this situation. Obedience without analyzing the outcome is a HUGE hurdle for me. I want to know if my actions will have a positive impact. And since I can’t predict the results of most situations, I tend to hold back from getting involved.
This time, I obeyed without analyzing too much. God, in HIS grace, has pushed me over my barriers once again. I'm pretty sure that next time I come to this same hurdle, I will balk again, and God is going to have to shove me up and over every time.
At least you are learning what makes you tick as the person God created you to be on His journey for you in life.
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